Made in Labuan :)

Salam.. Pertama sekali aku nak ucap Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Syukur tak terhingga kepada Allah. :D

Minggu ni saje ada 2 berita yang tersangat2 gembira buat aku dan suami.

Earlier this week, i found out that i'm pregnant!!! Yes, finally! And ironically.. aku baru je membebel pasal preggy2 ni dalam entry yg lepas.. tup tup, dah ada isi.. hikhik.

And today baru ada masa nak pergi jumpa doctor. So the doctor did the scan-scan thingy on my belly, and suddenly she asked,

"Do you have any history of twins in your family?"

"Yes.. why? OMG! don't tell me it's a twin?!"

"Well, looks like there are two sacs in there"

.......(speechless)..............

And she showed me the monitor. I saw two bulat-bulat thingy melekat to each other. It was amazing! Seriously amazing! And i couldn't stop laughing, and tau tak apa aku terbayang? Kawan-kawan my husbands yang selalu usik kitorang about having twin or triplet. Mawi and his twin sons, Wawan, Tun, Amir, Sabri, Syed, Fitri. All the faces flashed depan mata aku dengan gelak ketawa yg nakal. Coz we've been joking around about these twin thingy. About the tips and the techniques.. and tak sangka pulak jadi kenyataan.. haha. And we didn't follow the tips pun.. so mungkin tips tu ada flaws kot. Kena review semula tu..hik~

Tapi doctor cakap it's still too early. Kandungan aku baru berusia 6 minggu. One of them might not survive. There are still risks involved. So i need to pray hard and pray for the best. Moga both of them selamat dilahirkan dengan sempurna.. amiin. And doctor bitau the due date is 21st October insyaAllah. Selamat after raya.. Boleh la melantak rendang dan ketupat lagi tahun ni. hihi..

Of course aku happy sangat2 and tak berhenti ucap syukur. Tapi at the same time i'm soO freaked out! Ye lar.. this is my first experience. Suddenly terus dapat 2. Mampukah aku? Dengan suamiku masih di Labuan. Adoi.. sedih gak bila pikirkan.

Tapi aku yakin, kalau aku tak mampu hadapi, takkan la Allah nak bagi.. ye tak? So, insyaAllah everything's gonna be just fine..

Please2 doakan kami sekeluarga :)

Social Pressure~

Dah lama tak update blog..Sebab takde ape nak diluahkan. Tapi sekarang ni ada one issue that bothers me jugak lah.. takde la sampai aku stressed out (denial mode activated). Tapi sedikit sebanyak buat aku rasa risau and berdebar.

As much as single ladies out there rasa serabut bila ditanya "bila nak kahwin?", aku juga a bit serabut bila orang asyik tanya "bila nak dapat baby?", or "tak mengandung lagi ke?" , ada jugak ayat camni.. "owh lambat jugak yer awk, tak mengandung2 lagi".

For God's sake, I have only been married for 6 months ++ kot . And semua orang please be aware that me and my husband live far across the sea from each other. That it takes 2 flights and costs us more or less rm500 a month to just see each other. Sila jangan compare saya dengan mereka yang dapat bersama suami setiap hari setiap saat. Plus, i'm only 24++. Sabar boleh x? (I know i'm not getting any younger, tapi aku lum puas honeymoon kot.. hehe).

Eh, korang ingat senang ke nak wat baby? Haha.. itu rezeki Allah yang bagi.. lagipun i know and i believe perancangan Allah adalah yang terbaik. Kalau Dia belum nak kasi, mungkin itu lebih baik buat kami. Dengan keadaan kami yg jauh dan aku pulak pasni nak berpindah randah angkat luggage aku yang maha berat itu. Mungkin belum sesuai untuk aku mengandung.

Memang la aku nak baby. Tapi kadang2 aku doubt jugak.. do i really want a baby, or is it just because everyone else wants me to? Entahlar..

Social pressure ni memang takkan habis sampai la kita mati. Kalau pas abes belajar orang akan tanya - bila nak kerja?. Dah kerja, - bila nak kahwin? Dah kahwin, - bila nak dapat baby? Dah dapat baby, - bila nak dapat menantu? Dah dapat menantu, - bila nak dapat cucu? Dah dapat cucu, - bila nak mati? haha.. ada ke camni? Yang pasti nye the lists will go on and on sampai bila2.

Don't worry peeps, kalau Allah bagi aku rezeki, akan aku maklumkan kepada semua, so that u wont have to ask me every single time. Okay? Now, tadah tanganmu dan berdoalah untukku. Thank you. :)