Finding a reason to survive.

Aku tak tau la kenapa, tapi tinggal di Kuching ni banyak buat aku teringatkan hidup aku masa kat UK dulu.. Single and survival. Seriously the life I'm living right now, is very similar to my days back in Bangor. But of course, Bangor lagi seronok. (I'm sorry people, i still cannot get over it).


I miss him so badly!!

Everyday i wake up in the morning, just to find myself counting how many days left before i get to meet him. Because that's the only strong reason i can hold on to, to survive all this.

I know time seems to move slower when u keep on counting like that. But i can't help myself.

Cepatlah hari Jumaat!! Kan bagus kalau aku ada time machine. Selesai masalah!

I hate you! Yes you! You who sent me here! I really hate you! Bluek!!

adam sayang..

Hari ni aku tipon mak, tapi adam yang angkat fon..

Aku : Hello.. Boleh cakap dengan Nek Wan?

Adam: Sape ni?

Aku: Ni Mak Andak ni..

Adam: Owh.. Mak Andak.. erm, Mak Andak.. kenapa Mak Andak sedih?

Aku: Sedih? Sape kata Mak Andak sedih?

Adam: Mummy cakap Mak Andak sedih dalam telefon...

Aku: Ooo yeke.. takde la.. Mak Andak tak sedih dah..

Adam: Ok.. cakap ngan nek wan yer..

Mak: Hello... bla.. bla.. blaa...

I miss this little adam.. Although he is the naughtiest boy on earth, but he is so concern.. I love u boy!!! n i miss bertekak and gaduh2 with u.. :(

Reception and posting

Alhamdulillah.. baru selesai majlis resepsi kat Marang semalam. It's damn tiring.. but overall fun la. Got to meet Jumi's friends and Jumi's families.. And special thanks to syazwan (his friend) sebab sudi amik gambar kitorang.. And the pics are awesome! Thank u! smpai malam kot! Huh penat giler.

Akhirnya dapat jugak pakai songket yeay! :D


And pagi2 hari ni dah gerak gi kuching..

Tadi dah gi lapor diri.. Sekolah tu seems fine.. and the few people i met today pun cam ok..

Esok pencarian rumah bermula.. *pening*

Malam ni tdo hotel lu.. with him :)

He's lying beside me now.. watching movie while i'm updating my blog..

Can i consider this as our 2nd honeymoon? Ala boleh lar.. boleh lar plss? hehe... Bukan senang nak dapat berdua-duaan camni..

I thank God for giving me such a caring and caring and caring and penyabar husband like him.. it would have been soooOOoo difficult if i have to do this all by myself. Tapi rasa bersalah sangat sebab terpaksa drag him to Kuching, padahal he still got one week of cuti.. He could have been bersenang lenang kat kampung but instead, here he is tolong aku hangkut luggage seberat 45kg.. excess by 15kg. lupa nak upgrade awal2.. dah kena bayar rm235 for the excess baggage.. Terbaek tak? huhu.. Sorry kamu! And thank u for willing to berkorban masa, jiwa dan tenaga for me. I love u sangat2!

Esok hopefully semuanye berjalan lancar.. mintak2 jumpe satu bilik yang best.. insyaAllah. Doakan saya yer :)

Perempuan seksi vs Lelaki

Lately, aku banyak terjumpa blog yang penulisnya lelaki, bercakap pasal perempuan seksi. Kutuk itu ini. Aku bukanlah nak bela perempuan seksi. And in fact, aku pun menyampah perempuan2 seksi melampau macam ko sorang ada lekuk kat body.

Ok fine. Perempuan seksi = dosa.

Tapi...

What about guys?

Bukankah dalam ayat Al-Quran juga ada menyebut supaya lelaki menundukkan pandangan mereka?

Lelaki tak tundukkan pandangan = dosa.

So.. boleh tak aku nak simpulkan..

Perempuan seksi = lelaki tak tundukkan padangan = dosa.

Both of you takde beza. Sama-sama dapat dosa. Padan muka.

Nomad no more~

Malam semalam aku teman kak lily pegi kedai perabot.. she's looking for a suitable katil untuk bilik nureen.

AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, AKU TERUJA TENGOK PERABOT!

What does that mean?

Owh i forgot, i'm married. And every married couple should have their own house. Nanti boleh decorate rumah sesuka suki. Okay that's not the main purpose of having your own house of course.

Aku ada banyak rumah. But yet, aku takde rumah. Haha.. pening. For those yang kenal aku, they will know what i'm talking about. Living like a nomad. From one house to another. It's been a part of my life since forever. I never had a house to call my own. I never had my own room , and not even my own closet.. never. (But i'm grateful though.. at least i still have a place to stay).

The only thing that i have is this one dream. A BIG DREAM OF MINE. To live in my own house, to have my own room with my own bed and closet. I don't care whether it's a rumah sewa or rumah beli, as long as i don't have to live like this anymore, i would be sooOOoo damn happy!

And of course balik rumah semalam, i can't stop thinking about the perabot i will put in my living room, the katil, do i want something classic? or a modern type? What about the meja makan? and langsir.. Owh.. tak sabarnya!!!

Now that i have a husband, and aku pun bakal bekerja next month insyaAllah, i'm just two steps away from achieving my dream. The other step would be to live with him. Together in our own house.

Dream big people. You can achieve it. Slowly but surely. InsyaAllah. :)

Sahaja aku puasa kerana....?

situasi 1.

Mak Andak: Kimi makan nasi?! Tak pose eh?

Kimi: Aah.. kita tak pose pun... :(

Mak Andak: Dah nape kimi tak pose arini?

Kimi: Sebab tadi kita nangis masa abah kejut bangun sahur..

Mak Andak: Nape nangis nye?

Kimi: Sebab kita taknak dah duit..

Mak Andak: Haahahah! Cis! selama ni ko nak duit je la ek?

Kimi: Heeee...(dengan menunjukkan gigi rongak beliau)


Masa aku kecik2, takde sape pernah offer aku puasa sehari = Rm1. Kesian aku kan. :(

And i was bad. Trust me. Aku sangat jahat dulu.

Aku ada sorang partner in crime. Nama beliau terpaksa dirahsiakan (you know who you are.. hehe). Masa bulan puasa, tak silap aku time tu darjah 6. Hari-hari kami kayuh beskal pegi bazar ramadhan. Dah dapat sebungkus dua makanan (duit bukan banyak pun time tu), kitorang pun kayuh beskal pegi ke pantai balok. Cari port baik punya.. celah-celah batu besar. Pastu melahap lar sampai sengkak.. Tak senonoh punya perangai!

And the paling takleh blah part was.. balik rumah afterwards, dengan muka penat and lesu. Konon2 berpuasa lar... Wuwuuu.. kenapa aku sangat jahat?

Tapi now aku dah tak buat keje camtu. That was 12 years ago. Sekarang Alhamdulillah.. Puasaku hanya kerana Allah. Bukan kerana Rm1. Kerana aku tak pernah dilatih begitu. :)

Perasaan aku?

Ramai orang tanya,

"Ape perasaan dah jadi isteri orang?"

"Best jadi pengantin baru?"

And macam2 la soalan yang sewaktu dengannya.

Talking about perasaan aku sebagai pengantin baru.. hee... i feel sweet! i feel blessed! Every moment is so indah with him around. And even though now we are far apart, i'm still happy. It's good to know that you have a husband. Someone you belong to. No matter where on earth he is, he's still yours. And it's such a magical feeling.

Ada jugak moments yang kelakar and memalukan as a pengantin baru. Haha..thinking of it pun dah boleh buat aku histeria.. aaaAAAaaaaa! Mengot Rin!

And now.. aku menyambut ramadhan yang pertama sebagai seorang isteri. Yep.. our very first ramadhan together.. Tapi sadly kami belum ada chance berbuka and bersahur bersama lagi. InsyaAllah end of ramadhan nanti sempat kot.

Doakan kebahagian kami yer.. Ini semua baru permulaan.. panjang lagi perjalanan hidup ni insyaAllah..

Kla, nak ucapkan selamat berpuasa kepada semua! Jom jom kita pose! Chow!