a bun in the oven.

Owh.. another entry i found yang aku tak publish..hehe.. this one masa mula2 dpt tahu aku preggy.. when i was teaching in Kuching, Sarawak..tersenyum sorang2 bila baca blk.. haha...

"Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

Tak terkata gembiranya bila dapat tahu aku pregnant!!!! Masa nak wat test tu memang chuak giler! takut jugak kecewa. and kalau pregnant pun takut jugak actually. huhu..

After 7 days since my period was due, i bought the pregnancy test strip. I couldn't wait any longer. I need to find out. So balik je skolah terus test. And taraaaaaa!!! There were 2 lines visible on the strip thingy. terus aku keluar toilet jerit pada housemate untuk confirmkan that i wasn't halucinating. And we were all so excited. dengan pakai towel peluk2.. haha..

and i felt like my chest was gonna explode selagi i dont share this great news with my loved ones.. so i called kak lily. and my hubby!!!!! OMG.. i love his reaction.. like really speechless and he was just laughing and we couldn't stop praising The Lord. Syukur sangat2!!

And i told my very best friends and family members yg lain. Haven't announced it on facebook yet because belum jumpa doctor lagi untuk sahkan and i think it's still too early kot.. rilek la dulu.. hehe..

And paling tak leh blah, cikgu2 kat skolah mmg dah anggap aku pregnant without anyone telling them that i am. and when i asked, how come they so sure? and they said they can see it. I always penat and mengantuk and selalu tdo atas sofa kat bilik guru. hiks.. yeke? malunyer~

Apa2 pun, aku still perlu praying hard so that baby lam perut ni akan sihat walafiat and moga semuanya selamat. amiin.

Terima kasih ya Allah di atas segala kurniaanMu :)"

My M&M

I was reading my last posts.. terjumpa this one entry yang aku tak publish.. after bersalin.. here it goes.. hehe..


"Salam,

I am now officially a member of an exclusive club of twin mothers. :D

Akhirnya.. segala penantian selama 9 bulan telah pun berakhir pada 3hb October 2011. Aku dah selamat melahirkan my twin babies via c-section. Sakit wooo! Tapi Alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan lancar.

The first baby i named her Marissa. And the second baby Maisara. Simple je. Sebab senang nanti nak isi borang masuk unibersiti. hihi.. Marissa lahir dengan berat 2.69kg, Maisara plak 2.72kg..

I was fully pengsan masa operation tu, tak cukup kuat semangat la nak amik separuh badan je. and my hubby was allowed to enter the operation theatre, so he got to see how the doctor keluarkan our babies from my tummy.. i'm so proud of u for being so brave hun. :)

I was talking to the doctor when they asked me to sedut the gas, and the next thing i know, i was on the stretcher heading to the elevator. Masa tu dah mula rasa sakit teramat sangat, but i was too weak to even open my eyes. Aku sedar badan dan bibir aku menggeletar kesakitan sebab ubat bius dah habis, tapi aku tak dpt nk ckp or bukak mata. Mujur mak aku panggil nurse suh kasi ubat tahan sakit. then aku pengsan again. huhu..

There's no nice pic of me with the babies on the first day to put here, because my look was so miserable. ada pulak orang pegi tocang rambut aku, dah macam rupa ninja. bukan tocang nicely, but buruk-ly. haha.. malu tgk gambar sendiri. so hanya ada gambar babies je la.

And the first week after the operation memang sangat seksa. Sakit. Emotional. Frustrated sebab tak dapat nk hold my babies and breasfeed them. And my Maisara kena tahan kat wad sebab slightly jaundiced, then Maisara discharged, Marissa pulak admitted. My blood pressure plak naik time tu. And my hubby pulak dah kehabisan cuti and terpaksa went back to Labuan even Marissa was still in the ward. Masa tu perasaan bercampur baur. Tapi mujur ada mak and family members yang lain. Everything menjadi tenang and teratur and aku pun makin sihat.. Alhamdulillah."


sampai situ je aku tulis.. haha.. oklah kan than nothing.. chiow!

Our 2nd Anniversary

Alhamdulillah...

Setelah sekian lama menyepi dari menulis blog.. hari ini ada lah sedikit ruang untuk aku menulis.. and atas permintaan suami jugak.. dah lama katanya tak baca aku melalut di blog. life as a mother of a twin is reallly super duper busy.. tambah pulak hubby jauh... memang susah sangat nak cari masa untuk diri sendiri. Masa tido memang terhad. Memang benar kata seorang kawan aku yang ada anak twin jugak.. "silalah tdo sepuas puasnya sebelum ko beranak..".. sekarang aku paham betapa dia maksudkan kata2 itu.. haha.. Tapi apa2 pun, aku tersangat sangat sangat bersyukur dengan kurnian Allah ini.. Tak ternilai rasanya.. kebahagian yang tak dapat di beli di mana2 pun.. orang selalu bertanya.. "best tak ada anak twin?".. and jawapan tipikal aku.. "well, everything doubled! Tiredness.. busyness.. costs.. and yang paling penting.. happiness also doubled.. ". haha..

Hari ni, hari ke-10 ramadhan.. dan genaplah 2 tahun aku dan juhaimi menjadi suami isteri. Dua tahun kahwin, with 2 babies.. syukurr...Dia hanya balik for the weekend... hari sabtu pagi sampai kuantan, and ahad malam dah bertolak balik ke labuan.. (ok aku taknak merungut).. Alhamdulillah sempat jugak spend time selama 2 hari 1 malam dgn dia.. 2 hari 1 malam yang sungguh bermakna.. dan aku sangat bahagia.. heeee... Terima kasih ya Allah.. Terima kasih abang for everything.. 


Lama kan aku tak menulis kat sini.. takde idea dah nk tulis apa.. padahal tadi rasa cam byknye mende nk tulisssss!! tu la dah lama sgt tinggalkan blog ni.. otak pun jadi berkarat dah..

erm... my babies dah nk masuk 10 bulan.. dah bermacam ragam dan telatah... cepatnya mereka membesar.. lagi 2 bulan nak setahun.. waaa.. sekejap je rasa!!! Sekarang ni.. aku dah tak berpeluang nak ronggeng2 dengan kawan2.. semua tu hanya tinggal kenangan.. buat masa ni la.. tapi i'll be back wahai kengkawanku.. tunggguuuuu!!! huhu.. Tuhan je tahu betapa hati ni meronta2 nak join mereka lepak sama2.. tengok wayang.. buka puasa.. tapi aku harus terima kenyataan.. zaman itu sudah berlalu bagi aku.. bukan aku merungut.. cuma meluahkan rasa.. and aku dah redha pun... sedar2 diri la bukannya muda lagi pun.. haha.. dah jadi mak orang..

owh.. saya dah pindah rumah baru.. and akan dikongsi with my sister, kak cha.. when she and her 6 kids are back from Saudi.. coz her hubby still tinggal kat sana utk keje.. so kami ni macam persatuan isteri2 berjauhan dgn suami la kiranya.. haha.. we'll take care of each other insyaAllah.. buat masa ini.. itulah yang terbaik bagi aku.. coz aku memang tak mampu nak membesarkan M&Ms sorang2.. she'll be back on this coming 30th of august.. tak sabar!!!! rindu giler kat dorang sume..


oklah.. sampai sini dulu kot.. dah almost 2 am in the morning.. esok kena keje lak.. insyaAllah ada masa i'll update lah this blog.. k bubye.. wslm..

Few days to go~

The date is all set! Gosh.. knowing that in a few days time, u will be cut open, is damn scary ok. hukhuk.. Hanya pada Allah aku beserah. Dan jika ini ketentuanNya, aku redha. Yang penting, my babies sihat dan selamat.

Bila tengah2 tunggu hari ni, any pain kat area perut should be taken seriously. Since this is my first experience, i have no idea how would it feels like. Orang kata mula2 tu macam senggugut kecil, tapi never in my life aku pernah kena senggugut. So again, aku tak tahu camne rasa sakit tu. Pastu, tiap kali rasa sakit, i'd ask myself, ni sakit nk berak ke? or sakit nk bersalin? ke sakit kembung perut? haha.. suspen kot!

I've gained 25kg so far.. that explains the beratness i'm carrying in my perut. sangat2 heavy i tell u. Sabar2.. sket je lagi. huhu..

Can't wait to meet my hubby. Harap2 nothing will happen until he's here. I'm praying hard so that everything will go smoothly, and moga me and my babies selamat.. ameen. :)

Counting the days to be a Mommy~

Tik.. tok..tik..tok.. the clock is ticking!

Masa itu dah terlalu hampir.. dah nak masuk week 37. Alhamdulillah..

Esok ada appointment ngan my doctor. Will set a date for bersalin coz i'm not gonna wait till week 40.. dah tak larat sangat dah ni. So we decided to just go for it.. maybe next week kot.

Preparation sume dah buat insyaAllah. Just tunggu ketibaan my babies je. I'm so excited but scared at the same time.

Kak cha and family dah selamat tiba di Saudi. Ralat jugak sebab tak sempat dorang nk tengok my babies.. Next time dorang balik Msia, my babies dah setahun lebih. Tapi takpelah, dah takdir Allah. We'll just skype2 je la ek.. hehe.

Please pray for us. Moga semua berjalan lancar. ameen. :D

Aidilfitri 2011

Salam Aidilfitri...

Fuh.. mencabar sungguh beraya bersama2 perut yang sarat mengandung. But i still had a great time during raya this year. Ini tahun kedua kami beraya sebagai suami isteri. And first time aku sambut raya di Terengganu, rumah mak mertua. Meriah giler kot! And honestly speaking, memang seronok raya tahun ni. Maybe because of the addition in my tummy kot and the extra attention and care given by my husband and everyone around me. i feel more blessed..Alhamdulillah. And my friend from Johor, Ann aka semut ada datang beraya kat umah aku. sangat terharu! Thank you ann! tapi borak punya borak smpai terlupa nak ambik gambar.. huhu.. tahun depan kena datang lagi la kot.. huehue..

And tahun ni hanya sempat beraya ke rumah Polar. Lama sangat tak jumpa my bestie ni and dah jmpe ni baru berpeluang nak update each other. Really miss her.

About my pregnancy plak, I am now entering minggu ke-34. Hopefully babies dapat bertahan till at least minggu ke-37. Which is more or less 4 weeks from now. Macam2 benda bermain di fikiran ni. Will my babies survive? will i survive? what if i die? Will my husband make it there in time before the delivery? will he stand being in the labour room with me? will i be able to deliver the natural way or will my tummy be cut open? uwaaa! takut ok.

Last 2 nights before my husband went back to Labuan, i broke down into tears in his arms, asking for his forgiveness, telling him i love him so much, in case aku tak sempat nak jumpa dia dah lepas ni n in case i didn't make it after giving birth. Coz we all know, our nyawa is like telur di hujung tanduk masa melahirkan anak. Anything can happen. And thinking about all the possibilities selalu buat aku menangis sorang2. Tapi takde la sepanjang masa. Cuma ada masa2 aku bersendirian tu, mulalah nak layan blues..

Tapi most of the times, i'm happy and excited to meet the twin. Aku berdoa moga Allah berikan aku peluang berjmpa dan membesarkan dorang. Bila dah masuk 8 bulan ni, kaki and tangan dah sembab. hidung pun dah kembang. haha.. lawak plak aku tgk muka sendiri. And kalau aku baring, kena ada orang tolong tarik tangan and support me baru aku mampu bangun coz my perut is super duper heavy i couldn't get up by myself. hik. Nak drive memang dah tak mampu. Berjalan pun dengan kelajuan siput sedut dan dengan lenggokkan itik. After raya ni i have to mintak MC la smpai beranak. Coz memang dah tak mampu nak gi keje. huhu...Erm, tu je kot nk bebel. Please doakan moga semuanya dipermudahkan and selamat k. Thank you all!

p\s: To my hubby, thank you for taking such a good care of me and treating me extra special. i felt like a princess when you were around. Thank you Allah for lending him to me. I love you Abang! xoxo :D

Ramadhan pertama ibu mengandung~

Hari ni genap 4 hari umat islam berpuasa. Alhamdulillah setakat ni aku masih mampu berpuasa tanpa mengalami kebuluran melampau.. haha.. Allah Maha Kaya.

Honestly speaking, i was a bit worried to berpuasa. Tak tahu whether aku mampu ke tak. Sebab biasanya bila tiba time makan, aku akan rasa lapar, tak lama pastu rasa lapar giler, pastu kebulur tahap cipan selagi tak dpt makanan. Sampai ketar2.. melampau kan? So, aku terpikir camne aku nak berpuasa? kalau aku tak puasa plak, jenuh nak mengganti next year.. aduh!

Tapi dengan kuasa Allah dan berkat bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ni, aku rasa biasa2 je. Takde plak kebulur ke apa. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Harap2 akan kekal macam ni sampai abes puasa insyaAllah. I'm proud of my babies sebab ini puasa pertama mereka. hehe..

And now, tak sabar giler nak tunggu kak cha anak beranak balik bercuti for raya dari Arab Saudi. It's been a year since i last met them. InsyaAllah only days left until their arrival. Rindu teramat sangat!!! Cepatla masa berlalu :D

Ok till then, jom tido awal.. esok wajib bangun sahur! Chow~