Few days to go~

The date is all set! Gosh.. knowing that in a few days time, u will be cut open, is damn scary ok. hukhuk.. Hanya pada Allah aku beserah. Dan jika ini ketentuanNya, aku redha. Yang penting, my babies sihat dan selamat.

Bila tengah2 tunggu hari ni, any pain kat area perut should be taken seriously. Since this is my first experience, i have no idea how would it feels like. Orang kata mula2 tu macam senggugut kecil, tapi never in my life aku pernah kena senggugut. So again, aku tak tahu camne rasa sakit tu. Pastu, tiap kali rasa sakit, i'd ask myself, ni sakit nk berak ke? or sakit nk bersalin? ke sakit kembung perut? haha.. suspen kot!

I've gained 25kg so far.. that explains the beratness i'm carrying in my perut. sangat2 heavy i tell u. Sabar2.. sket je lagi. huhu..

Can't wait to meet my hubby. Harap2 nothing will happen until he's here. I'm praying hard so that everything will go smoothly, and moga me and my babies selamat.. ameen. :)

Counting the days to be a Mommy~

Tik.. tok..tik..tok.. the clock is ticking!

Masa itu dah terlalu hampir.. dah nak masuk week 37. Alhamdulillah..

Esok ada appointment ngan my doctor. Will set a date for bersalin coz i'm not gonna wait till week 40.. dah tak larat sangat dah ni. So we decided to just go for it.. maybe next week kot.

Preparation sume dah buat insyaAllah. Just tunggu ketibaan my babies je. I'm so excited but scared at the same time.

Kak cha and family dah selamat tiba di Saudi. Ralat jugak sebab tak sempat dorang nk tengok my babies.. Next time dorang balik Msia, my babies dah setahun lebih. Tapi takpelah, dah takdir Allah. We'll just skype2 je la ek.. hehe.

Please pray for us. Moga semua berjalan lancar. ameen. :D

Aidilfitri 2011

Salam Aidilfitri...

Fuh.. mencabar sungguh beraya bersama2 perut yang sarat mengandung. But i still had a great time during raya this year. Ini tahun kedua kami beraya sebagai suami isteri. And first time aku sambut raya di Terengganu, rumah mak mertua. Meriah giler kot! And honestly speaking, memang seronok raya tahun ni. Maybe because of the addition in my tummy kot and the extra attention and care given by my husband and everyone around me. i feel more blessed..Alhamdulillah. And my friend from Johor, Ann aka semut ada datang beraya kat umah aku. sangat terharu! Thank you ann! tapi borak punya borak smpai terlupa nak ambik gambar.. huhu.. tahun depan kena datang lagi la kot.. huehue..

And tahun ni hanya sempat beraya ke rumah Polar. Lama sangat tak jumpa my bestie ni and dah jmpe ni baru berpeluang nak update each other. Really miss her.

About my pregnancy plak, I am now entering minggu ke-34. Hopefully babies dapat bertahan till at least minggu ke-37. Which is more or less 4 weeks from now. Macam2 benda bermain di fikiran ni. Will my babies survive? will i survive? what if i die? Will my husband make it there in time before the delivery? will he stand being in the labour room with me? will i be able to deliver the natural way or will my tummy be cut open? uwaaa! takut ok.

Last 2 nights before my husband went back to Labuan, i broke down into tears in his arms, asking for his forgiveness, telling him i love him so much, in case aku tak sempat nak jumpa dia dah lepas ni n in case i didn't make it after giving birth. Coz we all know, our nyawa is like telur di hujung tanduk masa melahirkan anak. Anything can happen. And thinking about all the possibilities selalu buat aku menangis sorang2. Tapi takde la sepanjang masa. Cuma ada masa2 aku bersendirian tu, mulalah nak layan blues..

Tapi most of the times, i'm happy and excited to meet the twin. Aku berdoa moga Allah berikan aku peluang berjmpa dan membesarkan dorang. Bila dah masuk 8 bulan ni, kaki and tangan dah sembab. hidung pun dah kembang. haha.. lawak plak aku tgk muka sendiri. And kalau aku baring, kena ada orang tolong tarik tangan and support me baru aku mampu bangun coz my perut is super duper heavy i couldn't get up by myself. hik. Nak drive memang dah tak mampu. Berjalan pun dengan kelajuan siput sedut dan dengan lenggokkan itik. After raya ni i have to mintak MC la smpai beranak. Coz memang dah tak mampu nak gi keje. huhu...Erm, tu je kot nk bebel. Please doakan moga semuanya dipermudahkan and selamat k. Thank you all!

p\s: To my hubby, thank you for taking such a good care of me and treating me extra special. i felt like a princess when you were around. Thank you Allah for lending him to me. I love you Abang! xoxo :D

Ramadhan pertama ibu mengandung~

Hari ni genap 4 hari umat islam berpuasa. Alhamdulillah setakat ni aku masih mampu berpuasa tanpa mengalami kebuluran melampau.. haha.. Allah Maha Kaya.

Honestly speaking, i was a bit worried to berpuasa. Tak tahu whether aku mampu ke tak. Sebab biasanya bila tiba time makan, aku akan rasa lapar, tak lama pastu rasa lapar giler, pastu kebulur tahap cipan selagi tak dpt makanan. Sampai ketar2.. melampau kan? So, aku terpikir camne aku nak berpuasa? kalau aku tak puasa plak, jenuh nak mengganti next year.. aduh!

Tapi dengan kuasa Allah dan berkat bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ni, aku rasa biasa2 je. Takde plak kebulur ke apa. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Harap2 akan kekal macam ni sampai abes puasa insyaAllah. I'm proud of my babies sebab ini puasa pertama mereka. hehe..

And now, tak sabar giler nak tunggu kak cha anak beranak balik bercuti for raya dari Arab Saudi. It's been a year since i last met them. InsyaAllah only days left until their arrival. Rindu teramat sangat!!! Cepatla masa berlalu :D

Ok till then, jom tido awal.. esok wajib bangun sahur! Chow~

Our Very First Anniversary :D

Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.

Dengan izin Allah, 30 July 2011, dah genap setahun usia perkahwinan kami. Cepatnya masa berlalu.. rasa cam baru je kahwin.. hihi.. (perasan!)

We spent our anniversary night at Zenith Hotel, Kuantan.. Memang sgt best! Thank you kamu for the so many special treats! saya tersangat bahagia.. hehe :)

Few funny things happened during this weekend. And i can't stop laughing whenever i think about them. What a great end for this month. Alhamdulillah segala yg di rancang untuk bulan ini semuanya berjalan lancar.. syukur tak terhingga.

And my pregnancy dah genap 7 bulan. I've gained 14 kgs so far. And the weight has taken its toll on me. Kaki sakit. And payah tul nk cari position yang selesa. Babies suka sangat terbonjol2 kat perut.. sometimes when both of them nak terbonjol, my perut will look hideous.. cam bukit yang tak rata.. scary but i love it! Haha..

Owh esok pose, Selamat berpose to all!!

And to my hubby, Happy 1st Anniversary. I love you! Mmuah!

Busy Body~

Saya sangat serabut dengan orang yang busy body. Well, who doesn't? kan?

Hari ni tetiba ada lar sorang hamba Allah ni, came to see me and asked me about my work. Dia tanya apa aku dah buat sepanjang aku keje kat sini. Tanya mana fail meja aku. And macam2 lagi dia interview. Macam seorang bos menyoal siasat orang bawahan dia. And i was like, apa kena dia ni?

Kenapa plak aku nak kena bagi laporan kat dia? Bos aku kat putrajaya kot. Apa2 hal aku report kat my boss la. And in fact, i just came back from an attachment seminggu kat putrajaya and me n my boss dah berbincang panjang lebar soal kerja aku. Yang si hamba Allah ni nak amik alih tugas bos apehal lak?

Aku cam terpinga2 kejap. But then aku sedar lar.. ramai rupanya si busy body kat sini. Haha.. Pasni maybe segala kerja and jadual keluar masuk aku, aku kena bentang kasi semua orang dengar and jelas. Baru dorang puas hati kot. Hik.. aku tak pernah peduli hal orang. And to be honest, nama dorang sume pun aku tak tahu. So aku rasa cam kelakar plak dorang duk amik tahu hal aku. Saya terasa sungguh glamer.. haha.

Please la people, mind ur own business. Leave me alone, will ya??

A promising July~

June has been rough on me. But July started with a big smile on my face. :D

Owh, now i'm in my last trimester. Sudah masuk 6 bulan maa.. Perut sudah membesar dgn hebat. And dah start itchy2.. ouch! Kaki sudah sakit2 and a bit sembab. Berbaring bukan lagi satu perkara yang enak lagi asyik sebab it gives pressure on my pinggang and tulang rusuk (which i used to called tulang belang2.. haha).And i need to do some shoppings too! This part memang best. hehe. But i'm loving this experience. No matter how hard it is, it's so beautiful in its own way. Thank you Allah :)

Hubby is coming back next weekend insyaAllah. Awana Kijal!! Here we're coming!! Tak sabar nak show him my baby bump and let him feel them kicking in my perut. It has grown a lot bigger since we last met early June itu hari. I know he's just as excited as i am. Owh kamu, cepatlah pulang!!!

What else huh? I'm a bit tired actually. Siang tadi teman Kak Lily layan blues. Sian kakak ku yang sorang tu. Pastu shopping2.. Now kena rehat kot. I'm praying so that my July will be full of happiness.. ameen~ Nite. :)