Give your 100%.

If you have lost something recently, be it your money, your car, your special someone, your trust, there's nothing you can do to get it back. The only thing that is left to do is make the best out of everything that is still there. Love. Trust. Heal. Or leave. There is no point of staying and being bitter. If you are in this, go all the way. Not 50-50.

Let's be Happy :)

Let's be happy, lets find happiness in Allah.

 Let's be happy no matter what.

 Let's be so happy that people around us can't get enough of our happiness.

 So happy that it shines through and they can't help but want to be part of that happines.

 That they can't help but want to be a part of us just so they can have a piece of that happiness too.

Because happiness is contagious.                                                        . 

Let's spread it. Spread it wide. And be the source of that happiness in everyone :)

The Real Strength.

Anyone can give up.

It's the easiest thing in the world to do.

But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart,

That is true strength.

To let go is easy. I'm doing the hard part. I chose to hold on. Coz that's what strong people do :)

Happy birthday to me!

Hey, it's 21st November again! Today, i turned 9, for the 3rd times. Huehue..

3 more years to enter 30s. MasyaAllah. Haha.. Age is just a number afterall. Yang penting, jiwa.. cewaaaah!

This year, got a handbag from mr.hubby and a set of beauty supplements.. hehe. Thank you awak! But got no flowers. Why you no give me flowers? hahah.. leh tak tanya camtu?

Hmmm.. Didn't remember anything from last year punya birthday.. What did i do eh? What did i get? Seriously can't remember a bit.

Nak zoom in into zaman dulu-dulu boleh tak? fenfeeling sorang2 la plak petang2 ni kan.. huhu.

I really miss zaman dulu2 where my friends used to buat surprise birthday party or birthday treat. The last one i remember was this one.

Masa kat KMB siap kena baling telur, simbah dengan air tepung dalam baldi.. macam2.. walaupun kena buli, tapi seronok bukan main. haha.. I really missed those days.. When i said i missed it, doesn't mean i want it to happen again, at this age.. no no. Dah tua-tua ni rileks2 sudah.. tak larat dah nk berlari sambil dikejar dengan manusia2 yang cuba baling ko dgn telur dan tepung. haha..

And masa kat uk pun every year ada surprise birthday party from my friends.. Yang paling surprise meprise was done by my housemate masa 3rd year.. sangat2 happy waktu tu.. rasa macam pwincess.. hihi..

Zaman remaja memang best kan? I have nothing to regret Alhamdulillah. Surrounded by so many cool friends. Eventhough lately memang takde masa nak berjumpa and lepak2 macam dulu kala, at least i have these memories that i can cherished for the rest of my life. When i look back, i know my life was full of love and lovely people. Terima kasih ya Allah.

I miss my fwens!!! I miss my hubby! And i miss myself from back then!! Jom cari doremon? Nak pinjam laci masa lampau. tu ke nama laci tu eh? tak kesah la.. janji leh travel back to the past. hee..


And lastly, i wish myself for happines, stability, love, and prosperity.. Also may Allah guides me, gives me hidayah, gives me strength, gives me iman, makes me a good servant, isteri yang solehah, dan ibu yang mithali.. ameeen..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIN!!

The Beautiful Sinners

I have made so much mistakes in my life. And one that i really shouldn't have done is judging others.

Others who had commited sins. Yes aku nampak kesalahan mereka. Aku nampak perbuatan dosa mereka. Tapi adakah aku nampak jika mereka pernah bertaubat? Dan jika taubat mereka benar2 di terima Allah. Boleh jadi aku lebih hina dari mereka.

Dan Maha Suci Allah. Dia yang Maha menerima taubat. Dan menukarkan dosa-dosa hambaNya menjadi pahala. Dengan syarat hambaNya benar-benar insaf dan memohon keampunan.

I saw status update dari Ustaz Mohd Zawawi :

"Dia cemuh diri kita, dia caci kita, dia ejek kita, dia sakiti kita.
Maka, maafkanlah mereka.
Huh?! Maafkan sahaja? mudahnya cakap macam tu?
Inilah kebiasaannya jawapan kita.

Ini jawapan ALLAH :

"Hendaklah mereka memaafkan serta melupakan kesalahan orang-orang itu; tidakkah kamu suka supaya Allah mengampunkan dosa kamu? Dan ingatlah Allah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Mengasihani". (An-nur 24 : 22)"

See? Nampak tak betapa tak adil nya sikap kita sebagai manusia. Kita selalu berharap Allah ampunkan dosa kita. Kita buat Allah murka pada kita. Tapi bila tiba saatnya kita sedar dan kesal, kita memohon merayu meminta keampunan dari Allah.

Macam tu jugak orang yang telah berdosa pada kita. Dia benar-benar mengharapkan kemaafan dari kita. Kalau dia betul-betul ikhlas, maka maafkanlah.

Maafkan orang lain, sepertimana kita mahu Allah maafkan kita. Tak rugi barang sedikit pun. Malah kitalah sebenarnya manusia yang beruntung, kerana orang yang menyimpan dendam tidak akan bahagia.

"The weak, can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the Strong".

Aku masih mendidik hati ini menjadi seorang yang pemaaf. Memaafkan dan menerima kekurangan orang lain. Sesungguhnya, aku juga manusia yang penuh dosa dan selalu buat silap.

Ya Allah, tetapkan lah hatiku. Lembutkanlah hatiku. Tenangkanlah Jiwaku. Letakkan pengharapanku sepenuhnya kepadaMu ya Allah. Hanya pada Engkau aku berharap. Janganlah Engkau meninggalkan aku, kerana jiwaku kosong tanpaMu. Dekatkan aku dengan orang-orang yang mencintaiMu. Moga dengan itu, terpimpin aku menuju syurgaMu ya Allah. Ameen.

What does LOVE mean?

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all even when his hands got arthritis, too. That's Love. Rebecca - age 8

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French Fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate." Nikka - age 6

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it
everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old
clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you" Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget," Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. (Now this will melt your heart.) The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When
his Mother asked him what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."

Marriage box

1) Most people get married believing a myth that marriage is a beautiful box full of all the things they have longed for; Companionship, intimacy, friendship etc..

But the truth is...

2) That marriage at the start is an empty box.

Cuba bayangkan, masa mula-mula kahwin, perkahwinan kita tu ibarat satu kotak kosong. Cinta tiada dalam perkahwinan.

Tapi cinta itu ada dalam diri kita. Kita yang perlu letakkan nilai cinta dalam perkahwinan tu.

Tiada romance dalam perkahwinan, tapi kita yang kena serapkan nilai romance tu.

That marriage box, we need to keep the box full. Don't take out more than what we put in, otherwise, the box will be empty. Kosong. Kosong daripada rasa cinta, rasa kasih, rasa rindu, setia, tanggungjawab.

I'm sorry for keeping the box empty. I took out more than i put in. I'm so sorry abang. I'm so sorry for not knowing better. I'll improve, i promise. InsyaAllah. Please don't give up on me.

Doa Buat Suamiku

 Mengalir deras air mata. InsyaAllah, akan aku panjatkan doa yang terbaik buat suamiku. Demi cinta kami. Demi syurga yang kami cari.

Feed the right wolf. It will win.

I have been feeding the wrong 'wolf'. And it almost win. I was feeding it everyday, every minute, every second. It became stronger and stronger each day. Tanpa aku sedar, the other 'wolf' should also be fed. 

It didn't make me any happier. Instead, it drove me crazy. Why did i choose to become that way? 

Today, i decided to kill the wolf. I know it's not gonna be easy since it has now become so strong. But i believe, if i feed the other wolf, as much as i fed the bad one, the good wolf could become even stronger, and eventually win. 

I want him to win. So, i will feed him. 

You.. help me. Let's feed the good wolf together. Until it becomes so healthy and strong and no other wolf could ever defeat him. Please.. help me. I can't do this alone. I need your help. 

I wont give up on us

I totally madly in love with this song. 

It keeps me strong, whenever i feel like giving up. Of course i submit myself to Allah too. But this song, it keeps me hoping, that i'm not the only one who experience this pain. 

I have been listening to this song thousands of times since last september. 

I like the lyrics. And of course i love Jason Mraz. Let this song be our theme song. Our first motivational song. haha.. not a lovey dovey one. Coz all the lovey dovey song is not actually the real picture of our love and life. Coz i now realized, It wont always be stars and diamonds. But instead it is full of storms and thorns. We need this kind of song to remind us not to giving up easily. I love you sayang. I love you.

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

Well, I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up, still looking up.

Well, I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up